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i was contemplating deleting all my previous writings from years ago because i sounded like a complete dork but then decided i still sound like that so it doesnt matter.

im going to write a childrens story because i was talking to jenn about some of my childhood experiences and she had them too and encouraged me to write a childrens story about them. basically when i was little i would wake up or not fall asleep and be in my dark room and see glitter in the air. like lots of glitter. and i wasnt imagining it because jenn saw it too and i still see it now except now i realize its because my eyes are staring at dark space and there are mechanisms in your eyes that make you see weird light patterns. but if you really try to see glitter in the dark air you can too.

i realized half the time i imagine things i imagine about what would happen if someone died. usually its always different people but alot of times its my family members and my friends. i definitely dont want them to die but whenever they leave the house im terrified that will the be freak accident people read about in the newspapers and i will just be a scared lonely pitied child. sometimes i imagine my friends dying and how much that would suck. it is sad but if one of my friends died i would probably have less to regret than if one of my family members died, meaning that i regret more of the things i do to my family than i do to my friends.

i have many aspirations this summer and i hope they will be fulfilled. i tend to get a little nauseous whenever i dont have plans with other people for more than like 3 hours during a summer day for some reason. but also i want to do awesome things like paint somethings on a canvas and write music and make bracelets and read the bible and read other books and find my true identity that has been hidden under all the layers of pretense all these years. im actually just kidding about that last part because i know my true identity is in jesus but actually i want to feel that too not just know it. im glad im halfway done with highschool after next wednesday.

iiiiiiii dooooooooooooooooont want to studdddddddyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy for my mathhhhhhhh middddddddterm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
distracted because:
1. listening to ignition by r kelly HOT N FRESH OUT THE KITCHEN
2. basketball tryouts tomorrow
3. studying is hard
4. theres a small group potluck outside waiting for me...
5. extended sugar rush from halloween weekend

woww hellloo xanga! i thought id never ever type anything in this little box ever again. but its been nice reading what people wrote whenever i wanted to take a break from facebook or schmacebook or aim or schmaim or gmail or gschmail, all that fancy stuff. my last post (post?) was from when i finished 7th grade and i still wanted my xanga page to look pretty so i meticulously drew clouds and raindrops and cupcakes on the paint program and then made it my background. i also cared about whether or not whatever i wrote was actually worth reading, or well worded, or whatever. wow, really do not care about that now. also i feel like im typing to myself, but whatever.
so what are people sposed to write about on here? i cant be like josiah and write a really long story about my life that just happens to be really really funny and totally relatable, or be like ryan and write about...wow i dont even know the name for it, something really smart or if i dont feel like it, post a stupid link to the onion or a basketball article, or be like kelly and write about how im changing the world, etc.
so i guess i just wanted to record/think about whats been going on, because really, i dont keep a journal and pshsycholorajergaergelgologists say that keeping a journal keeps you more mentally fit or something, just kidding i just wanted to talk about myself.
hmm so im fifteen, going to sophomore year after this summer that will never end, favorite color: yellow, favorite food: cauliflower. im in hong kong right now, we went to japan which was pretty cool, and thailand to visit lots of relatives and saw ze!!!!!!!! and were going back on sundayy, pretty excited about that cuz i cant wait to run outside and be able to breathe, and see my friends and eat a chicken wrap, maybe play a little ball, and lay on grass and go to a blink concert!!! but also ill miss looking out the window at night and seeing the harbor and all the city lights and living in the same apartment as seven other people that i love, and taking the subway and using my supercool octopus card and eating in little noodle shops and bubble milk tea. 
you know how people finish off really long posts with sentences about how theyd be really impressed if someone actually read the whole thing and then you read that sentence and you feel like a dork cuz you actually did read the whole thing? well i guess that doesnt apply here cuz this really wasnt that long and i still feel like im talking to myself, but peace out anyways

seventh grade is over, completed, done, finished, ceased, accomplished, and ended. party!
ahh summer! id rather have mosquitoes than homework

so in the month that i have neglected the computer, several events have passed
1. i am now aged 13 years old. 12 was such a boring age to be
2. my little brother learned to sit up in the booster thing and yank out my hair
3. school
4. i went to regionals for spelling, where i spelled cinnamon instead of synonym. actually, that was january
actually, im not making a list. then, ill keep forgetting stuff and then ill have to keep editing which will probably be pretty annoying
oh yeah, i watched 2 people at a math contest race to write down as many decimal places of pi as they could
o yay! no school for like a week.
my vision is horrible now! pretty soon, my glasses with be so thick that theyll weigh down my head
unfortunately, i have scar tissue in my eye so i cant wear contacts for a long time. isnt that convenient?
guess wat i can kill spiders now without flinching! except i hate the crunching sound
today, about 40 teachers dressed up like students and pretended to be kids. it was so weird. i mean, we dont wear pigtails!